Ok just to make it clear, even though almost all of you who even care already realize, I never post on lj anymore. If you want to know what is up with me, you have to go to my myspace page. :) Ok I am done.

You're on my Friends List, and you're here for a reason. I like you, I definitely think you're interesting, but I probably don't know a whole lot about most of you. So if you'd answer these 25 questions for me, I'd really love it! Thanks!

1. Ever punch someone in the face?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Do you eat with your hands or utensils?
5. Do you dream at night?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. Have you ever wished someone dead?
8. Do you like Bush, the president?

HERE COMES THE FUN ...
9. What's your philosophy on life? And on death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know about it, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police? (the cops, not the band)
12. Do you like country music?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself, would you?
15. Would you date me?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool? While you were still in it?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. What is your favorite thing about me?
21. Do you think I'm attractive?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you.
25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Today was really tiring.
I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment.

I feel a bit strange because we've just moved to Idaho and there's a weird smell in the house.

I want to tell the world that I'm gay.

I am making this journal friends only because I don't want the world to read what I'm writing, even though I'm posting it on the internet.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my cock.

I want to say thanks to the academy for giving me this award.

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, and should stop smoking drugs.

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you you're a moron.

Too funny!

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

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So I don't have to repost this entire entry, just go there to see what I wrote. Hahah.

So about this time last year I was talking about how I was so happy this chick named Kari had walked up to me at church and said, "you look really cool and you seem like someone I would be friends with- want to hang out?". Well now we are what I would consider pretty good friends. I don't tell her my deepest darkest secrets, and I dont see her every day- but (I dont see ANYONE everyday) we do share quite a bit, and I do hang out with her on a regular basis. And when we do get together, we usually have a lot of fun.

Kari and her husband have this little magazine they run every month called Microfilmmaker Magazine. She was in the newspaper on Friday, you might have seen the article- it was two pages. Anyway, its basically articles, diy guides, equiptment reviews, film critiques, links to filmmaking resources and more. If you are interested, here is a linky... www.microfilmmaker.com So anyway, once a month, they pick their favorite of all the indie films they reviewed and then they show the movie at the Kentucky Theater for a midnight showing. Its pretty cool- they charge $5 dollars, you get to meet the director, and they have a giveaway at the end of the movie. You all should definately go with me next time! Friday night I took my sister, her friend and our cousin with me. The four of us sat together and 3 of us won 3 of the 5 prizes given away that night- how cool is that? Maggie won a zrock shirt, I won the soundtrack to the movie, and Elizabeth won a $5.00 gift certificate to Cosmic. Very cool. And the movie was pretty cool too. I am definately gonna have to get it. The movie was called The Coat Room and if you care, you can find out more about it on their website.



Ok now that I have gotten all of that out of my system... It seems that I am destined to make one very good friend a year. Last year was Kari. This year it's Christiana. I have always been nice to her, and we were always in random groups together at church, and we have even occasionally gone out to lunch together - but we never really hung out. Till lately. It just never occured to me to invite her before I guess but for some reason, about 4 months ago, we just started getting together more and more. At one of Chris's softball games we were talking and out of nowhere I invited her to go camping with us a couple of weeks ago becaue I knew she liked that stuff as much as I do- (I have been promising to go hiking with her for months but we keep failing to set a date) and seh went. It was a lot of fun and there was no akwardness- it felt like we had been friends for forever.

So then I invited her to the 4th of July thing. And we spent all day yesterday hanging out at a church picnic. We just sat and talked for almost 5 hrs and all of a sudden it was dark and everyone had gone home- so weird. Its nice to have someone I can to for hrs comfortably or hang out and do stuff with and not be bored for even a minute. I have that with only a few people and I have wanted more for awhile now. Most of the friends I had that with in the past either moved out of state or we stopped talking as much and its hard.

I also love that she is up for anything anytime no matter what. If she is available. The only downside to having a friend like that is that she is often already busy. I called her Saturday night to try and get her to go to the movie with me but she was already busy with a couple of other friends. :) I dont know many people (not even Chris) other than myself who will do practically anything they are invited to do just for the hell of it if at all possible, even if they don't want to. Its kinda cool.

I proposed the idea of organizing a huge capture the flag game for sometime in the next month and she loved it! The current plan is for the 28th. I am so happy! I know we all have to endure hard and frustrating times to truely enjoy the good stuff, but I wish there was a way to bypass it you know? I am happy that I have so much going on and everything seems to be going along happily- but at the same time I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I know thats weird coming from me since evryone is always complaining that I am so optimisitic that its annoying but its true. If we are honest with ourselves, the happy always has to end, at least a little bit, and I just hope the happy lasts for a long time this time. :)

Everything does seem to be going right. I have all of these wonderful friends, friends from church, (Christiana, Kari, and many many women in various groups I am in such as TLC and the womens minestry that I am now a part of)... and lately Alex is more happy and cheerful than cranky and disobedient- this is such a wonderful stage of childhood, I wish I could keep him like this for forever. There is a lot to be thankful for and yet so much to be frustrated with- money, my father- dont even get me started on that. UGh. Anyway. Thats that. I just wanted to get that out of my system. Sorry it was so long.

A Challenge To Us Today




Our goal is for women who come to Grace Bay House as "victims" to leave as "survivors"...

Sydney Tyler Thomas was raped at gunpoint in 1978. A college junior at the time, she finished school, saw her attackers convicted and headed off to graduate school, followed by a life on the fast lane in corporate America. Despite recurring flashbacks, chronic and sometimes severe insomnia, numerous stress-related illnesses, and several marriages and divorces, she thought shed put the rape behind her. That is until early 2005, when her then 16-year old daughter confessed that she had been molested by a family member when she was 10.
Dealing with her daughters pain, as well as her own anger and outrage, not only at the molester, but at family members who chose to pretend that nothing ever happened, Sydneys world spiraled out of control. Another bout of serious illness and a stressful divorce made finally dealing with the unresolved issues of both her past and her daughters a necessity.
In addition to a renewed spiritual relationship with God, and the help of her therapist, Sydney turned to knitting as a contemplative, meditative practice to help calm her nerves and focus her thoughts. Soon after, she started Soulful Knitting Ministries to help other women find similar peace, while engaging in charitable knitting for others as part of the healing process. Sydney soon realized that many of the women she met while knitting had themselves been victims of sexual violence, or knew someone who had. At that point she realized that she needed to focus the efforts of the ministry on helping women who had been victims of sexual assault. One of her first, and arguably most difficult projects, was crocheting a lap quilt for the man who raped her, a man who is serving life in prison in a maximum security federal penitentiary. While the Prison Chaplain strongly suggested that she not send it to him, Sydney realized that the act of forgiveness is just as much for the forgiver as it is for the person begin forgiven, a message that she wants to deliver to other women who have been victimized by sexual assault.
Sydneys simple desire to reach out to other women like herself and her daughter, has grown into a passion that consumes most of her time. She is now the founder and Executive Director of Grace Bay Charities, Inc., a charitable organization whose mission is to provide emotional and spiritual support, educational information, advocacy resource information and proactive healing workshops for survivors. In addition, GBC seeks to increase public awareness of the long-term impacts of sexual violence not only on victims, but on their families and society at large.

GBC is planning to open a retreat, a spiritual spa of sorts, where women who have been raped can come to rest, heal, meditate, pray and re-group, through participation in a 4-day rape recovery & restoration retreat. The goal is for women who come to Grace Bay House as victims to leave as survivors, with renewed hope for their future and a sense of empowerment over their past through development of an emotional and spiritual action plan for forgiveness and restoration, as well as a support network of resources they can utilize after their departure.
To make this dream a reality, Grace Bay Charities is actively soliciting donations to help purchase the facility and to cover operating expenses so that women can attend the 4-day workshops at no charge. To learn more about Grace Bay Charities and this important project, visit www.gracebaycharities.org or contact Sydney Tyler Thomas at 804-365-0170.

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I stole this from a friend's blog (http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=20804258&blogID=141672725&indicate=1) - she posted it earlier today and I was so moved by it that I decided to share it too. Here is what she wrote on her page:

"So, you all have heard the phrase, "There is power in numbers."

Let's prove it.

On average, I get over 1,700 unique visitors to my site a day. On Monday, over 2,200 different people read all the nonsense I posted. Let's do something worthwhile with this site today. I am asking each one of you to please contribute to the Grace Bay Charities. If each one of us were to give only $20, we could raise over $34,000 IN ONE DAY! We'd be like the Angelina Jolie's of the celeb-blogging world, right?

Seriously, though, they are raising money to help women who have been sexually assaulted, violated, raped... Can you think of a better way to spend your money today? Let's all band together and show that we care enough to make a difference.

I absolutely believe in you guys and thank you ahead of time for your help. Click here to make a donation. It's really easy and it's safe. Just click the paypal button and go from there.

You can also mail a donation to:

Grace Bay Charities
c/o Sydney Tyler Thomas
PO Box 383
Sutherland VA, 23885

If you have any questions or want to know more about how you can help, please contact gracebay@gracebaycharities.org - 804.365.0170 (phone), 804.545.1960 (fax)

or if you wanted me to find out something for you then my email is HLFerrari@gmail.com and my aim is TheNiceHeather80.

God Bless,
Heather"

Ok peoples, I know you were just dying to see my pictures. So here ya go:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/rainbocow/

I had a lot of fun- especially when the storm came and the wind blew over a big 'ol tree branch about 20 feet away from me. Yep. Seriously though, except for the fact that only half of the people showed up, everything was great. For the first time ever, more of my friends came than Chris's! Ryan still wasn't there and neither was Michael, sigh, but eh. You can't have everything.

All three of us even got some good sunburns. Mine is pretty much everywhere there was exposed skin- Chris's was just his shoulders, and Alex's was just his face. Alex has the cutest little tan now- and his butt is bare white in comparison, you can see exactly where his swim trunks were. SO CUTE!!! I love it! I wish I could show you pictures without someone screaming "Thats kiddy porn" at me or something stupid like that. Blah.

Hope you all had lots of fun too! Now we need stupid movie night.

I love days like this... it's all dark and rainy. I hate sunny rainy days- they make no sense and they just seem obnoxious. Every once in awhile you just need a good old fashioned rainy gloomy day. This is the kind where you stay inside and snuggle and watch movies and eat comfort food all day- the kind where you walk into a room without lights on and it's dark enough that you can't see. I love it! Some people find these days sad or depressing but I just really enjoy them a lot. The only thing that could make it better is some thunder and lightening.

So I am starting to worry that my kid isn't gonna sleep in his own bed! We went camping both Friday night and Monday night and he really loved it. He slept between me and Chris both nights. Now I am thinking maybe he thinks thats going to be a normal thing for all of us because this morning at around 5am, he walks into our room and says, "Hey mommy!" and proceeded to climb into bed- between Chris and I- and fell fast asleep. Thats all well and good if its a once in awhile thing but what if he starts doing this all the time? I am already continually frustrated by the whole "Lets wake up at 6:50 or so every freaking morning" thing. Sheesh. When he is in the bed with me, I don't sleep all that well (duh). He moves around a lot and we wake eachother up back and forth many many times during the night. It's like having a newborn! I didn't get even two solid hrs of sleep without being woken up at least once. GRRR. AND he lays on MY pillow instead of in the middle on no pillow or on like, half mine and half Chris's. So I had no pillow and I had only enough room to lay on my side and pray I didn't move in my sleep. It was very unomfortable and at times, painful. Thankfully when Chris got up, Alex scooted over to his side of the bed and made himself comfy- so I got at least an hr and a half of painfree sleep last night. Sheesh. I know I should have gotten up and put him back in his own bed but I was tired and had to be up early this morning, and we had all gone to bed late anyway so I let it slide. That may come back to bite me in the ass in the next couple of days.

Sigh.